Hummusbird

This might be a bit peculiar of a topic. I want to talk about something that is affecting a few coworkers that I have. I mean, from what we’ve spoken about privately. That topic is men experiencing depression. So the weird part of this is that women are allowed to be depressed. Are you aware? Women can talk about their feelings, how bad they feel, etc. They can get depressed and feel sad and it’s ok. But men can’t. At least, from what I’ve been told, and from what guys have told me. Men are not allowed to talk about these things. Men have to keep it all inside. It’s not “manly” to feel sad. I think this is why men are angry all the time — half joking.

There are actually therapists who specialize in treating men. Again, since men are not supposed to feel sad and you wouldn’t know this is a thing. But these exist.

I think mind health is very important. No one ever talks about therapy because you’re not supposed to. It’s a taboo subject. Everyone should see a therapist, however.

Everyone.

The people who say they don’t need it probably would the most.

I was one of those people.

“Oh, I cannot think of why I would see a therapist.”

OH BOY was I wrong. Speaking personally, it’s probably the wisest thing I’ve ever done.

This provides a place for people to talk about topics they wouldn’t otherwise. The things we talk about in my therapy sessions are, well, they’re private, but they’re useful to me.

So I found there are places that offer depression therapy for men and I think this is very useful so men can have a place to talk about their feelings. I think a lot of people are depressed still they do not realize it. Which is kind of weird, but also I think that’s how depression works. People do not even quite understand what depression is, and that is actually normal, but I would say overall that I think it’s ok for men to find treatment if they are not having a good emotional state.

Anyway, my thoughts are pretty clear on this. I’m not sure how people are feeling but I know that when I wasn’t too certain about a few things I started seeing someone and I’m thinking so far it has been a good decision. My sessions are useful to me and it’s making me reevaluate a few things. People should take this chance to see someone if they think it would help them out. It did for me.

This sink in my bathroom is broken. I found a plumber but he won’t fix it.

Did you know it’s hard to find a plumber? I found a place with plumber jobs in Los Angeles. I cannot find some plumber that will actually fix the sink, though.

I desired to watch YouTube videos and learn how to fix it that way, but I am just not a fix products person. I really like to have people mend the thing for me. I have tried scrubbing it and that didn’t work, and even the Drano did not work, so I was going to see a plumber but I was unable to find any.

Look, I do not want to keep fussing, so I’m going to talk about something else. You know what would be fun? I want to make a radio play. I’m not even sure if people listen to the radio anymore but having something to listen to would be fun. Like the old time plays where there were the people who read the different parts, actors who had roles with different actors. That sounds great. Those are popular and I think there are some on websites but I want to make this. Or if I couldn’t, I would compose a book. I would write a book but I do not know if anyone would read or buy it. I am not even certain what I would write about. But I would do it. Making something like that, yes? That would be amazing. I want to write something like that. I’m not sure if you could get it in stores or what. I do not know the process. I do not even know what I am writing about now. But you know how some things resonate with you. This resonates with me. Writing a book. Discussing… me. But people wouldn’t want to know that. I’m not thrilling or entertaining.

Mostly, though, I want to do something like that. Or another close thing. But ultimately, how does somebody start? Do they just have a laptop and start typing? That’s what I would do. Maybe your topic comes to you as you write. Maybe you do not know what it is without starting. Does that seem good? As far as a plot, I mean. Or an explanation or the way it transpires. I have no idea. I just want to compose. I want to make a book and have people enjoy it. Or maybe just for me. Will this concept be doable?

With the car I have for the most part there haven’t been any problems. I do think though that I should probably bring it in and have it looked at because recently the stereo has been crackling a little bit. I’m not sure I know what the issue but I figure someone else can figure it out. There most likely should be a BMW repair shop around here that I am going to take it to. Looking online brought me to their site so I figure I will go there and see if there is anything they can do. I don’t even know if it’s an issue , actually, I might just be a weird thing with my stereo. But since I really don’t do anything with that I think that I might just have to ask them about it. I don’t know a lot about any of that stuff so I am really glad that that will be able to figure it out for me. When my problem is identified then I think I will either have them fix it or see if there is anything I can do for it. I don’t want it t keep happening. I listen to my stereo regularly but I’m not sure if there is anything I can do to to fix it. I think hat I am going to bring it there and see if they can do anything for it. Most of all, I just want to have it how it was when I got it because I’m sure it didn’t do his before. I think though that I am going to have to see if they can work on it. I haven’t really done much with it so I don’t know if there is anything I can set myself that might fix it. So I figure that leaving it to professional is best. The stereo in my car is pretty great, though, although I don’t know a lot about them. But I like the choices it gives you. I really just listen t music on it although I figure this is what I would generally use a stereo for. I was going to see if I could learn more about stereos but I ‘m not entirely sure where I would do that. It seems like most of what you see online is just trying to get you to order stuff and doesn’t really want to give you a lot of information. So that’s why I figure it would be best to go somewhere that will give me information without trying to influence me at all.

We have been talking about the job market because I am looking for somewhere to work. I have a job but I”m not really that happy there and I think that’s the is the kind of thing you should do if you aren’t happy where you meet. So that is why I was looking at some other things. In my field there is a decent number of openings, I mean, I work in management so it’s like you can get stuff there. There are other fields though that I have no idea how hard it would be to get a job when you are looking for physician jobs or whatever, because I know there are places that hire but I don’t know how they transact. So basically I guess you would have to be able to find a place that is hiring and then see how that works and get some discussions going with people there. Discussions are actually a pretty important part of getting a job whether you’re doing them with people who are going to hire your with people who already work there. It’s important to find out what you are looking for and I think that the best way to do that is to get what you can so that you can know what you are going to be sharing.

That’s part of he reason I like to try and find out what I can about a company before I go in. But that doesn’t always happen. So really though if I could find something that was close to what I do now but set up in a different way that would be great, it’s not that I don’t like my job, it’s just that there are some things here that i’m not crazy about and I think that it would be a better environment for me somewhere else. And that is probably a reason that a lot of people get different jobs. But if I can’t find one that’s alright because I think that I’m probably pretty ok at this company. And I just want to get to a place where I am enjoying what I do so I can express myself in a way that will get me to where I want to go and respected. So that is the reason I have been seeing what I Can find and although I haven’t seen much it doesn’t mean that I won’t get something, it just means that it might not be that what I want is available around here so I might have to try other options.

Blogging is something I enjoy because it lets me talk about whatever I want and all the people who read my blog can see what I have to say, post their own comments, etc. I’ll write about whatever I think of and there are some cases where I might not even write about anything too interesting, but it’s still something I like to do. I encourage myself to try and think about things from other standpoints. I have a friend who told me that she wants to get into blogging and asked me how to begin. I told her that she really just has to write! Just start typing about whatever it is you want to share. She said she had been writing a few things down but she wasn’t sure how she should go about organizing them on a website. She doesn’t even know anything about making a website and I told her that wasn’t really an issue because there are sites that make it super easy. There is Livejournal, which everyone has heard of, where people write about all sorts of stuff. And then there’s another blog called Weebly which basically does all the formatting and everything for you and you just have to write your own posts. Of course there are others, too, like Webs. And you’ve probably heard of WordPress. And then there are even less thought of ones like certain others. I think it’s really a matter of looking at them and seeing which one works the best for you. Most of them are free, and a few have options you can pay to upgrade even if the basic features don’t cost anything.

So basically she just needs to start working on it and checking out those sites and seeing which one she likes the best. There are some blogs I like to read, and I know that some people read mine, but one of the things that is cool about the internet is you can really read whatever you want so if someone finds your site and likes it, they can see what you have to share. And if you find something you like it works the same way. My bookmarks are full of sites that I like to read, and some of them are even sites that I visit on a regular basis. I think that is the goal for most, but even if no one reads your site you should still write if you like it.

My friend was talking to me about how he is looking for a new car.  He just got a raise at work and he is looking for something new to drive, I guess.  He was telling me that he wants to get something that is a bit more elegant than what he has now.  So I think he’s going to be looking for the bomb deals or something.  I’m really not even sure how to negotiate for a new car because I have never done it.  I think that my friend would probably enjoy it, though, because he has one of those personalities.  I watched him negotiate over the phone once, or rather I should say listened to in over the phone, on something he was buying online.  It was nuts.  I didn’t even think that he would be able to do that but I guess he said the right things.  I should’ve written down what he was saying so I could try it myself.

Anyway, I think that the kind of car you drive says a bit about you, but I think that there are some people who are just really into it.  My friend is kind of like that.  He has been wanting to get a new car for a while but he waited until he got a raise so that he would be more able to pay for it.  I think he’s going to try and find a Lexus lease deals location because he has been talking about Lexuses (is that right?) and that’s probably what he’s going to get.  I imagine he will sell the car he has now because he only has one parking space and I don’t know what he’s going to do with two cars.  And it’s not like he’s going to need the second car, either, since he doesn’t really ever need to bring a lot of stuff anywhere.  Maybe to the grocery store or something but that doesn’t really have anything to do it.  I am also going to see if I can go with him to the dealer when he is looking at cars because I’d like to see what is out there and I want to see him negotiate.  Of course I won’t be able to help or anything, I’ll just be watching, but it would still be something that I think I need to see.  And then if I decide to get a new car I’ll at least not be going there for my first time when I am going to buy something.

Really I would like to start working out. I am thinking about going for a run every morning just to start and I think that might be a good way to get into things. I will have to start with a shorter distance so I don’t end up getting sore and then not being able to run the next day. I think that after I d o that for a while I will start to stem out and move on to other forms of working out like weight lifting and maybe some body weight stuff, too. I think that I would like to learn how to do some weight exercises so I can get in the gym and walk over to the bar and load up a ton of weight and blast out the poundages like crazy. Of course that probably won’t happen because I don’t think I would ever be able to do that but it was a funny idea.

While I am learning about all this sexercise stuff I always want to see if I can find out more about some of the supplements I have been hearing about like garcinia cambogia which i s supposed to be able to help epeople lose weight but I don’t know if that is something that I would need. I think that i am just going to star tout like LIke I said by running and then if there are some other exercises I want to add into everything I’ll do that. Th eother thing I will need to do is make sure that I am running in a good road where everything is nice a nd flat so I don’t step in any weird areas. I think that the roads where I live will work for that so I am going to see what i can find. I will probably also want to get some workout gear so I can feel like I am an official this. The one thing that I am also considering is whether I should run on days when it is really rainy or snowing. I mean I know tha tsome people will run no matter what but I think that I would rather just stay in when that happens because I don’t want to be out there dealing with the rain and stuff. The other thing is that I am going to want to amke sure that I get enough miles to make it worth my effort.

My husband came home last night with some news that was a mix of good, shocking, exciting, and nerve racking. He got offered a new position in Charleston, SC and the position is way too good to pass up. He is going to basically have his own office there with 20-30 people working for him. I’m not going to go into detail about what they are paying him but if he meets certain goals I might not have to work anymore. He is pretty confident that he will too so I don’t know what to think. I never thought I wouldn’t have to work anymore and it is not a guarantee that I won’t even if things do work out. We don’t have nor plan on having any kids so being a stay at home Mom is out of the question.

This is all going to happen in the first quarter of next year. That gives us plenty of time to check out real estate in Charleston SC. I don’t even know where to start with that but I plan on doing just that later this afternoon. We have to get our current house on the market too as the sooner we can sell it the better. We can always live with my parents temporarily until we move if it comes to that. They have more than enough room. We also will have to figure out what we want in our new home. Right now we live in a ranch home and I personally would rather have a duplex. It would just be nice to have our bedroom and maybe an office upstairs away from the rest of the place. I know one thing he will want and that is a finished basement. Our current one is not finished and he’s been saying he was going to for years now. It is just one of those things that we (mainly him) never got around to doing.

I told my sister Emily about this and she said she will definitely be visiting us during the cold winter months here. I totally forgot about the climate change. It will be nice not having to deal with the annual large snowstorm that we always get around here. I know he won’t miss shoveling it either. He just bought a snow blower two years ago so he’ll have to sell it or give it to somebody.

My husband and I just moved into our new apartment and so far so good. We are still unpacking but have all the essentials unpacked and it is starting to look and feel more like home. It is certainly bigger than where we were before. We used to live in the city in a rather small one bedroom apartment. It was in a great location but for what we were paying it was nowhere near big enough. I felt like we were on top of each other all the time and that is no way to live. The kitchen there was the worst part of it as it was so small that the both of us really couldn’t be in there at the same time. We really wanted to stay in the city but for the kind of space that we wanted we had to move out to the suburbs to be able to afford it.

We now have two bedrooms and the 2nd one is almost as big as the one we used to have. Our master bedroom now is just huge. Our bed looks so tiny in there compared to how it looked before. We definitely need to buy some more furniture to fill that room out a bit more. I don’t want to put a bed in the 2nd one as it would take up too much space. I would however like to put a futon in there so I’ll have to keep my eye out for a decent one on sale. In case you were wondering our kitchen now is a lot bigger. We like to cook together but could never really do that before but now we can. Last night we made spaghetti and meatballs together and we had a blast. I think we are in the minority where we both like to cook as I know most couples it is either one or the other that does it. We basically take turns depending on what we feel like making and who is doing what on a particular night. On the nights he works late then I definitely cook. On nights when I want to go to the gym or whatever else than he does.

Speaking of food that is probably the main thing I am going to miss about the city. All the restaurants out here are all chain places and I don’t like going to most of them. That just means we will have to eat out less and cook more at home which isn’t a bad thing.

For a while now I’ve been looking at ways to diversify my assets. I’ve been dumping money into a 401k for as long as I can remember, but I’ve never actually played around with my money to see how I can make it work for me. All I can tell you about my current investment portfolio is that I put 6% of my weekly income in a 401k, it’s matched….aaaand that’s it. Well, I have also been saving tons of money and now I think it’s time I learn a little bit about playing the markets.

Of course, I’m not what most people would call “normal” so I can’t just buy a few stocks and sit on them until a company makes a big change that nets me a few grand, I need a challenge. Not only do I need a challenge, but I like to see fast results.